I am not 'emo' and I am not 'goth', I am this strange out of place mix of goth and emo and light and bubbly.
I have these 'fases' were I am more goth for a period of time, and then I am bubbly for another period of time. Normally something causes me to go from fase to fase. Like there is this guy I really hate and he is comeing down the hallway. If I was laughing my face will instantly chang into a stone cold wall of hate, and when he is gone I might return a bit normal but not totally, it will take me around a half hour to snap out of it. Do you see what I am saying or do you just think I am crazy? Oh, well....
Today was kind of a big crash for me, I had a 18 inch long tube of pure sugar yesterday and today was kind of the crash day. So I am not that hyper today, I basicly did nothing besides eat, sleep, breath, and watch TV. So I am sorry if I seem a bit slow today, because that is because I am...
Okay.... Good-night yall...
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Long-Time No Chat
Wow, umm... it is been a long time since I have wrote. Well this is what has happened since I last wrote.
At Amy's Bat Mitzvah Rick and Summer were making-out, and they didn't even know each other. (Summer kissed Rick) Now everybody thinks that Summer is even a bigger slut then she was before. And I don't even know if that is true but you yeah......
I started arguing to a sub about the dress code because I felt like it. And I won the argument.
I found that I was more popular then I thought, because A LOT of people wanted to sign my yearbook.
The school year ended. Me and some of my friends went to Borders then to Paloma's house (one of my friends)
I learned that Paloma had a two day crush on this guy named Micheal Portal. Who was one of the really popular guy's at my school.
And 5 seconds ago I just learned that my Dad told me the wrong new e-mail address, and I gave that wrong e-mail address to all my friends. *sigh* Now I am going to have to send this big e-mail telling everybody what my really e-mail address is...
Okay folks, have a good day!
At Amy's Bat Mitzvah Rick and Summer were making-out, and they didn't even know each other. (Summer kissed Rick) Now everybody thinks that Summer is even a bigger slut then she was before. And I don't even know if that is true but you yeah......
I started arguing to a sub about the dress code because I felt like it. And I won the argument.
I found that I was more popular then I thought, because A LOT of people wanted to sign my yearbook.
The school year ended. Me and some of my friends went to Borders then to Paloma's house (one of my friends)
I learned that Paloma had a two day crush on this guy named Micheal Portal. Who was one of the really popular guy's at my school.
And 5 seconds ago I just learned that my Dad told me the wrong new e-mail address, and I gave that wrong e-mail address to all my friends. *sigh* Now I am going to have to send this big e-mail telling everybody what my really e-mail address is...
Okay folks, have a good day!
Friday, May 23, 2008
Shopping!!
Okay, I just came back from shopping (at Ross, they have good stuff there) and I got two new dresses and two new pairs of high-heels (the second pair isn't really as high-heely as the first) for my friend Amy's Bat Mitzvah. Because I was not about to weir the same thing that I wore for Aubrey's Bat Mitzvah to Amy's Bat Mitzvah because you just don't do that...
Anyway, I like shopping as much as the next girl even though I am not a girly-girl, I still like stuff. I know you are not supposed to be attacted to material things. But if we weren't then most marriages wouldn't work. So be glad!
Oh, and I also have the funniest pictures that I need to show you. I had this Drama project right? So me and my partner Ariam were supposed to be zombies, so made the make-up look like I have a black eye, and alot of scars. I have three pictures. And I don't know exactly when I will put them up but they are really cool!!!
Have a good night, drive safely, drink responsibly, AND MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A SOBER DRIVER BECAUSE YOU MOST PROBABLY WILL GET WASTED!!!
~Live. Laugh. Love~
Lyra
Anyway, I like shopping as much as the next girl even though I am not a girly-girl, I still like stuff. I know you are not supposed to be attacted to material things. But if we weren't then most marriages wouldn't work. So be glad!
Oh, and I also have the funniest pictures that I need to show you. I had this Drama project right? So me and my partner Ariam were supposed to be zombies, so made the make-up look like I have a black eye, and alot of scars. I have three pictures. And I don't know exactly when I will put them up but they are really cool!!!
Have a good night, drive safely, drink responsibly, AND MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A SOBER DRIVER BECAUSE YOU MOST PROBABLY WILL GET WASTED!!!
~Live. Laugh. Love~
Lyra
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Late Night Confessions
I am just so nervous about everything. About school, about tests, about my social life, and even about the dream of ever having a boyfriend.
Lets focous on the last part, about me wishing to have a boyfriend. My first boyfriend was in 3rd grade and my first kiss (like 3 ish and if you don't know what '3' means then go to wikipedia and type ing 'snogging scale') was with that same boyfriend, and when I dumped him I haven't had a boyfriend sense.
Sense we have the basics covered I am going to go more in depth.
I have lots of friends that have guys staring at them, somtimes even follow them places. Yeah, I had one guy come up to me and start talking to me in a different language (and later I found out that he was trying to ask me out) but I even think that was a joke because the group of friends he was with were laughing there heads off when he came up to me. And all the other people that have asked me out were just joking nothing was for real. So it makes me think, does every single guy veiw me as a joke? Am I ever going to be anything other than that crazy ADHD girl? All I want is some guy that is NOT my father to like me. I want a guy to come up to me and ask me out and be SERIOUS about it.
I have a friend who was in a relationship with a guy for 2 MONTHS!! And I can't even get a guy for a day?!? I makes me take all the little comments that people have degrated me with and look at them and ask myself is that I really am like?
I know you will probably say don't be what other want you to be, but it is hard you know? And it is scary to be yourself. Even though the reason why I am more myself then any of my friends is because I have NO ONE to show that I am pretty, or whatever. No guy ever looks my way with that look like man she is pretty. One of the only looks I have gotten from a guy is when that guy thinks that I am not looking, and he looks at me and wrinkles up his nose like he smelled something bad.
I have people every day say somthing about how bad or how greasy my hair looks (even though it isn't). And one time my leg brushed agains my best friends arm and she looked at me and said, "Man, you need to shave more often." I said shut-up, but I was thinking I SHAVED LAST NIGHT!!! OH MY GOD WHAT DOES THIS WORLD WANT FROM ME?!?!?!
That is just some of my worrys but I am going to have to go now because my dad is going to come and check on me in a little while
Lets focous on the last part, about me wishing to have a boyfriend. My first boyfriend was in 3rd grade and my first kiss (like 3 ish and if you don't know what '3' means then go to wikipedia and type ing 'snogging scale') was with that same boyfriend, and when I dumped him I haven't had a boyfriend sense.
Sense we have the basics covered I am going to go more in depth.
I have lots of friends that have guys staring at them, somtimes even follow them places. Yeah, I had one guy come up to me and start talking to me in a different language (and later I found out that he was trying to ask me out) but I even think that was a joke because the group of friends he was with were laughing there heads off when he came up to me. And all the other people that have asked me out were just joking nothing was for real. So it makes me think, does every single guy veiw me as a joke? Am I ever going to be anything other than that crazy ADHD girl? All I want is some guy that is NOT my father to like me. I want a guy to come up to me and ask me out and be SERIOUS about it.
I have a friend who was in a relationship with a guy for 2 MONTHS!! And I can't even get a guy for a day?!? I makes me take all the little comments that people have degrated me with and look at them and ask myself is that I really am like?
I know you will probably say don't be what other want you to be, but it is hard you know? And it is scary to be yourself. Even though the reason why I am more myself then any of my friends is because I have NO ONE to show that I am pretty, or whatever. No guy ever looks my way with that look like man she is pretty. One of the only looks I have gotten from a guy is when that guy thinks that I am not looking, and he looks at me and wrinkles up his nose like he smelled something bad.
I have people every day say somthing about how bad or how greasy my hair looks (even though it isn't). And one time my leg brushed agains my best friends arm and she looked at me and said, "Man, you need to shave more often." I said shut-up, but I was thinking I SHAVED LAST NIGHT!!! OH MY GOD WHAT DOES THIS WORLD WANT FROM ME?!?!?!
That is just some of my worrys but I am going to have to go now because my dad is going to come and check on me in a little while
Dogs and Stuff
Right now I am sopposed to be studying for my Spanish, but I havn't wrote in a while, and I am sorry. Also Mike McEllen is over (he is the guy who gave me my laptop) and I have to take care of his dogs again. Not that it is a BAD thing I was just telling you.
My weekend is packed though (I have to dog-sit from friday to saturday). Saturday I am going to my friend Amy's Bat Mitzvah, and on Sunday I am going to the beach with Rick (my dad's friend) and is ex-wife Martha (which happens to be my moms name) and their daughter (Jessica, 15 ish...) and I THINK their two sons Cody and Brian (both in their 20s or older).
My Spanish Final is Friday I am TOTALLY going to bomb it. I am horrible in Spanish, but I do know how to say bitch, bastard, fuck, and mother fucker in spanish. Isn't that sad? That I barley know how to say "Help! Stop that theif!" but I can (kind of) cuss someone out in spanish.
Okay I have to go my mom is getting suspisous (that is not how you spell it but what ever).... ADIOS AMIGOS!!!
My weekend is packed though (I have to dog-sit from friday to saturday). Saturday I am going to my friend Amy's Bat Mitzvah, and on Sunday I am going to the beach with Rick (my dad's friend) and is ex-wife Martha (which happens to be my moms name) and their daughter (Jessica, 15 ish...) and I THINK their two sons Cody and Brian (both in their 20s or older).
My Spanish Final is Friday I am TOTALLY going to bomb it. I am horrible in Spanish, but I do know how to say bitch, bastard, fuck, and mother fucker in spanish. Isn't that sad? That I barley know how to say "Help! Stop that theif!" but I can (kind of) cuss someone out in spanish.
Okay I have to go my mom is getting suspisous (that is not how you spell it but what ever).... ADIOS AMIGOS!!!
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